The last few days, I've been spending a fair bit of time in thought, formulating my plan going forward. Reflecting on where I've come from. I've taken some pretty big steps in the last couple years, and I have ambitious plans for 2013.
One thing that I've been considering is: what is the place my blog has in my journey?
I've realized something. My blog is very important to me. The most important part of it is simply getting my thoughts out of my head and down on paper (or really onto the computer screen.) Without it, those thoughts and words can endlessly swirl around in my head.
It's more then that too. It's part of my social network. I've made real friendships on this blog. Some people I've met in person. There are others that I have never seen in real life, but still consider real friends. When I'm having a rough time, I get encouragement, and when I'm flying high, I get congratulations.
It's public accountability. When I set goals for myself and put it in my blog, it's an announcement to everyone what I'm planning. I link to my blog on facebook and my email signature. So, while not everyone reads it, everyone can if they choose to.
Blogging is something you have to do for yourself. If it's just about the "audience", it comes across as fake. Sure, I've had some posts that get laughs, but there's others that were the most in need of being written that get far less attention. And that's okay, because while I like the attention, that's not why I do it.
My blog is a record of where I've been. I love that I can look back at it and know the actual day I started to run. Remember what it was like walking into that very first swimming lesson; how terrified I was just going into the deep end of the pool. I can see the good and the bad. The elation at finishing my first 5K over 2 years ago, and the effort to complete my first half ironman last summer.
My blog has helped change me, and it has recorded that change. Writing is something that is in me and is a part of me. So, that's the other need it fills: the need to write.
My blogging volume has dropped, and I'm feeling a bit out of touch with the blogging community right now. I feel like there's so much going on with my world that I don't even know where to start, but I am starting back. Expect one of my updates in point form in the next couple days.
Because this is a part of me.