Because, in many ways it is my first.
It is my first full triathlon of the season. It is the first post-injury race that I will be running in. And, it's a HALF IRONMAN. Quite frankly, I'm afraid.
The physical training is done. I have a swim this morning, but even that is more mental preparation then physical. There will be no further improvement to my fitness level at this point.
So, what about the fear? I have two main techniques I use. The first is logic.
Logically, I'm ready for this race. In fact, I have never felt more prepared for a swim and bike portion. The open water swimming has really been clicking for me and I think I am at the highest level of bike fitness I have reached yet. I'm a little disappointed that the bike course is different this year, as it gives me no opportunity for direct comparison from last year.
Then there's the run. Well the main fear is the post injury fear. The "what if it's not really better" fear. Logic? Logically, I truly believe the bone is fully healed. I have been running on it for a month. There is no pain from the injury point. None. Now, there's no more reason to believe that I will be injured in this race then at any other point in the past of future.
Sometimes, a little voice reminds me that I have not run 21.1 km for three months, but is that a fear? When I think about it, not really. I've run the distance many times in the past. Physical training is important, but I've done that. My long "runs" in lead up to this have been largely on the elliptical, but I know that they have still prepared me for this race. It's my mental strength that is going to get me through the run. It's not going to be easy. It is going to hurt. But, I have the mental power to push through it.
One thing the injury experience has given me is the ability to say "I ran a half marathon on a stress fracture. I can do this." And, I can do this. And I will.
So, am I still afraid? A little bit. Here's my other technique: Noted.
Tomorrow, I will cross the finish line of my second half ironman.
|Completely unrelated to the post, here's some strawberries I picked from my garden for breakfast.|