Saturday, July 27, 2013

The day before the race

Tomorrow is the big race.  The BIG race.  I'll be toe-ing the line at Calgary 70.3.  It's my second half ironman, but it feels like my first.

Because, in many ways it is my first.

It is my first full triathlon of the season.  It is the first post-injury race that I will be running in.  And, it's a HALF IRONMAN.  Quite frankly, I'm afraid.

The physical training is done.  I have a swim this morning, but even that is more mental preparation then physical.  There will be no further improvement to my fitness level at this point.

So, what about the fear?  I have two main techniques I use.  The first is logic.

Logically, I'm ready for this race.  In fact, I have never felt more prepared for a swim and bike portion.  The open water swimming has really been clicking for me and I think I am at the highest level of bike fitness I have reached yet.  I'm a little disappointed that the bike course is different this year, as it gives me no opportunity for direct comparison from last year.

Then there's the run.  Well the main fear is the post injury fear.  The "what if it's not really better" fear.  Logic?  Logically, I truly believe the bone is fully healed.  I have been running on it for a month.  There is no pain from the injury point.  None.  Now, there's no more reason to believe that I will be injured in this race then at any other point in the past of future.

Sometimes, a little voice reminds me that I have not run 21.1 km for three months, but is that a fear?  When I think about it, not really.  I've run the distance many times in the past.  Physical training is important, but I've done that.    My long "runs" in lead up to this have been largely on the elliptical, but I know that they have still prepared me for this race.  It's my mental strength that is going to get me through the run.  It's not going to be easy.  It is going to hurt. But, I have the mental power to push through it.

One thing the injury experience has given me is the ability to say "I ran a half marathon on a stress fracture.  I can do this."  And, I can do this.  And I will.

So, am I still afraid?  A little bit.  Here's my other technique: Noted.

Tomorrow, I will cross the finish line of my second half ironman.

Completely unrelated to the post, here's some strawberries I picked from my garden for breakfast.

6 comments:

  1. You go! I'll be working in T1 somewhere. I'll yell if I see you. Have a great day out there!

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  2. Good luck - I'm a total chickenshit on jumping up to these longer distances. I am in total awe of you overcoming all of your fears and doing this thing! You go girl!! Kick some ass! Can't wait to hear all about it.

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  3. Hey, good luck and have fun tomorrow!

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  4. I have been very out of it but saw this post and want to say good luck...not that you need it, I remember your strength and determination even if I haven't read blogs for awhile! Have fun out there Deb!

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  5. Can't wait to hear about your race! I bet you did great! You sound a lot like me, I had my first race this weekend post broken wrist and was a nervous wreck about getting on the bike again, but it was a blast and reminded me how much I love the sport. Of course that was a sprint and yours is a 70.3, so quite a difference there. I'm sure you rocked it!

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