I won't say I fell off the wagon. I never stopped running. I took a break from swimming, but have been back at it for a solid month and a half. My bike? Oh, poor neglected Bella. Yes, she has been locked in a closet since I did my last race... three months ago.
I never let go of my goals, but I did let go of my focus. There was travelling for the rest of the summer and then some real life commitments I had to deal with. Then some excuses and a bit of laziness. I ran when I felt like it, swam when I wanted to. Nothing too intense. Just because. In my opinion, a great strategy following a big race - just not for three months.
But, upon getting all that out of my system, I took a look at everything and considered where I want to go.
I want to figure out just how much potential I have.
At one time, I self identified myself as a "slow runner". I was never going to race to compete, only complete. Doing a sub-60 10k was something I saw as the holy grail of running, at least for me. I figured if I could reach that goal, I'd be forever happy with my speed.
The day I started seeing more was about a year ago, when I shattered that 60 minute barrier, running a 10K in 56:33. Then I bested my first half marathon time by 30 minutes. There was finishing that 5K as the fourth female.
And the thing is, I feel like I still have more. Much more.
I've now invested in myself in a way that 2 years ago, I didn't think I was worthy of. (As a note, I always recognized the worth of a coach, just not my worthiness of one.) Along with my new job came the financial freedom to do so. I've hired a coach.
Not just any coach. Angie, whom I've been working with in group classes for nearly two years now. She's already guided me towards numerous "aha" moments and breakthroughs before I was even one of her coached athletes.
Today, she emailed me my program. Nothing surprised me. There wasn't even anything to scare me - much. Overall, more focus and balance. For the swim and run, I feel like the main adjustment will be some intensity on the run, and a more specific focus on the swim. Although I did see some hill repeats sneaking in a few weeks in. Hills are my training partner, right?
But then, there is spin class on Friday, which will be the first time I get on my bike (I don't think a couple rides on my hybrid at the pace of a 5 year old count). Her words in my plan are: "this is going to be a shock to your system".
I think that might be coach speak for: "you might die".