It's now less then three weeks till race day and I am in minor freak out mode. This is a big race for me. A half ironman? Am I crazy? When I set out on this triathlon journey, I only had a goal of doing a triathlon, any triathlon, probably a try-a-tri, or maybe a sprint.
Part of the fear is real, and valid. It's one thing to go into a race with a goal "to finish", but when that race has cut off times, you automatically have a time goal if you want to finish. And quite honestly, I am afraid of those cut off times.
The swim: I'm not too afraid of the swim cut off, but I really have no idea how fast I am in open water. I've done two Olympic distance races (1500 metres), with times of 37:42 and 43:09. Ironically, the longer time was the race that I think I swam better and faster in. Even so, adding another 400 metres on, I should still be good to finish in 1:10. Should. I'm kind of hoping I can finish quicker then that so that I can be out of transition and onto the bike within an hour.
Because what I am afraid of is the bike cut off.
5 hours from the start of the race. So, if I manage to get on the bike within an hour, that gives me about 4 hours on the bike. And I'm just not very fast. Yesterday I rode about 100 kilometers. I accidentally stopped my garmin at one point, so only recorded 96. 96 km, which took me 4 hours and 10 minutes. The bike on the race course is 95km, and if I go that speed, I might not make it.
Close. Very close.
Now granted, I did run 19 km the day before. I've also been hit with yet another cold. It was also a bloody hot day out. At the very least, I can avoid doing a long run the day before my race. No guarantees about what viruses my children will give me or what the weather will be like.
So, I should be able to make the bike cut off. Should.
But I'm afraid.
I'm afraid because I know it will be close. And, I know that a flat tire or a strong headwind on the point to point course could be my undoing.
I'm going to do it anyways.