So, I went to see a physiotherapist this morning. My doctor had told me not to worry about it until I was able to weight bear again, but I figured I needed to get a jump on it. Do something, anything to try ease this loss of muscle.
It was reassuring.
Yes, my calf muscle is smaller. I have some tight spots in my lower back, my hips, my other calf - largely caused just by walking in the aircast. But, my flexibility is good. Even the joints that have been stuck in the aircast have more mobility then she's used to seeing. She credited the activity that I have continued to do, despite the injury.
I actually was feeling like an athlete again. Sure, an injured athlete. But, a recovering athlete. An athlete that cares. An athlete that will work through this. She asked me what my goals are. Primarily, to get back to running. I accept that I will have to walk before I can run. But, soon, I intend to run.
She reassured me that the muscle can recover fairly quickly. She gave me some strength work and some stretching work that I can do right away. I go see my doctor next week, and I'm hoping it will open more possibilities. One step at a time.
I feel like I'm not longer looking down a long tunnel of injury, but rather, heading towards the exit of it. One step at a time. The waiting isn't quite over, but it's getting close, and with it, the possibilities are starting to seem real.
I will run again. I will recover from this, and it will only make me stronger.