I have a really hard time believing I can do something until I've actually done it. For instance, this weekend, my long run was supposed to be 22km (13.7mi). I have never run more then 20km. (Yes, I've done a half marathon, but crashed towards the end, so didn't "run" more then 20 even there.)
Okay, but let's consider this. I have run 20km, and it wasn't even that hard to accomplish. 2 more kilometers is only 10% and isn't even a stretch. But, I was worrying beforehand if I was going to be able to do it. Would I be fueled enough? What if I crashed?
Okay, another thing. When I was training for the Police Half, I wanted to break 2:30 for the half marathon. Yeah, I wasn't setting time goals, but that was the time they started reopening the route to traffic, and I wanted to be done before then. I didn't make it. So, then there's the concern: am I capable of running a half marathon in less then 2:30?
|Okay, it's a bit blurry, but the read out is: 2:27:06, and 22km|
The thing is, I'm going to have to start trusting my training. So far, I've been able to train over the distance on almost every race I've done. BUT, my long term sights are set on Ironman, and I want to do a marathon. You simply don't train beyond the distance in those races.
I have gotten better though. Early on in my running I had to fight the little mental voice telling me I'm not a runner for most of my runs. I believe I am a runner now. I just have to believe I can go the distance.
And, in some races, when you go the distance, you get a medal...
When I got home from my 10km run on Saturday, Spud awarded me with a medal for completing my "race". I love the fact that he still considers finishing to be winning. I hope we can keep that attitude.
A closer look at the medal...
This is the side you get if you don't go out the door to run at all...