I've realized something about myself. I spend too much time thinking about the future, dreaming about the future, worrying about the future...
I realized when I looked back on my last post. Rather then celebrating the 1.6 pounds I lost last week (which is pretty darn good!), I celebrated the fact that I'll be breaking into the 100s next week.
I buy more clothes that will fit me in the future then will fit me now.
Recently, I started worrying about whether I will make the swim cut off when I do an Ironman. An Ironman I am planning to do in 2014. THREE years from now.
I have this vision of the person I want to become, the person I want to be. My vision includes the physical, and what I am physically capable with. I also picture myself brimming with confidence when I get there.
Is the person I am ever going to match the person in my head?
There's nothing wrong with having goals and aspirations. In fact, I think when you stop having any type of goal, you stagnate. I want to always have something I am working towards and trying to accomplish.
For that very reason, the future me is never going to match the current me. And, that's okay. It's time to accept that. There's no reason I can't be happy with where I am right now. I've lost over 40 pounds and I'm looking good. The former non-swimming, non runner can swim 1500 metres non-stop and ran 16.1km (10mi) this past Sunday.
It doesn't change the fact that I have goals I'm working towards. But, the current Deb is pretty great too.
Congratulations! First on your journey to date. That's quite an accomplishment! Next on your weight loss over the last week. That's excellent! Finally, congratulations on "getting it". Your journey is ABOUT the journey, and not the destination. Your process of transformation is just that: A Process. It's not an event. There will not come a day where you officially declare, "I have arrived!" Beit professionally, personal or spiritual, we're always transforming, evolving, improving. Just keep visualizing your success. Believe in you and know your potential is limitless.
ReplyDeleteFitness-wise I don't live in the future. There are other things in the past that made me feel like I had to live in the future (like when we were building our condo that took for-ever!). Sometimes DH has to remind me to live in the near future and don't worry so much about the far future.
ReplyDeleteIn terms of fitness I am really taking one year at a time so it is a different journey for me than it is for you. You have come so far and are doing so well. Enjoy all victories, like the 1.6 pounds you lost last week! It's all about the journey, not the destination.
Exactly, current you is awesome, and future you will still be awesome.
ReplyDeleteGreat goals!
Don't beat yourself up too much :)
ReplyDelete"The clock is running. Make the most of today. Time waits for no man (or woman!). Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why they call it the present." - Alice Morse Earle